It has been for days now.. Maybe weeks that the mind is getting clustered and soul is restless.
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The tension, worries, anxiety have all won their battles and now they are celebrating by destroying me day by day. No calls are attended by me neither I feel the need of coming online. TV, PC, and everything have just lost their worth in my life. Mornings, Nights all look alike to me. Hope has moved away somewhere leaving me in the world full of fear and despair. I just try to survive…survive that’s all. But all efforts goes in vain. The house that seemed mine now just looks like another piece of construction. I threw myself on the sofa and tried catching sleep.. Never did I knew the power of mind the thoughts and everything that just killed me in the best way it could. Breakfast, lunch, snacks, dinner all faded away from me, it was just coffee and fast foods that helped me in prolonging the life.
One fine day I decided to take a walk, pulled up a dress from the pile, aimlessly combed my hairs for few minutes, shutting the door I moved out. The fresh breeze touched my face, the obviously the sun had a bright shine. But, the streets still appeared absurd to me and loneliness was attacking me like a slow poison . My random walk took me to a beach side. For hours I sat there, watching, gazing and observing everyone around. People were enjoying some were with their family, some with friends, they had acquired people for their emotional support, for sharing happiness and pain;infact everyone except me.
Then suddenly saw a child cry ing— just because his ball was taken away with the waves. I don’t know why I envy his tears. I felt that he is so lucky that he can cry, brust out in grief and could free himself. His temporary tears can save him from overthinking, worries and fear.Left my place and ran to catch the ball, this made me wet but I continued to swim. Finally, caught the ball and smiled as if I had won a huge fight. Coming next to the kid, I looked in his eyes. He grabbed the ball from my outstretched hands and jumped out of joy. My clustered mind just went blank, the thoughts and all burnt for that time. I could feel the relaxation and unloading of burden. It was after so many months that I swim and smiled. His happiness just refreshed me from inside. That small event made me realize —
‘ Happiness isn’t that difficult as we adults assumed it to be’.
Thanks to the kid, for he helped me in overcoming depression and living a better life ❤️
